A Life Full of Scrap

Yeah it's over... end up I'm not the one that is thinking too much and yes I was right... my intuition was never wrong! I'm so not in the mood to update why it ended... my LDR story stopped here. 23.9.09. Stupidest date ever!

I feel like crying all over again... my heart is so pain now till I'm speechless... I don't know what to say... I don't know what to think...

I love him so much... but he ... nevermind. He is a nice guy. At least way better than my ex. I will still miss him. Guess I can't go AAR concert with him. Since he got a wedding dinner... since we are over. My heart feels like a thousand knifes poking through it... it's so torturing... I guess it's my fault and my God damn blog yeah... makes him think too much.

I wish he will change his mind, I wish he is ready someday and he will still tells me he loves me. I wish... merely just wishes which will never come true. He was the sweetest guy and will forever be. I'm having migraine from crying too much. I guess that's it.

PS Kok Yu: I will miss you... thank you for everything... as long as you're happy... I am too.