A Life Full of Scrap

Suspicious mind worked its way silently...

We can't go on like this,
we are breaking each other,
before we are saying the words.

I want to break free of these negative thoughts,
but it’s almost impossible for a girl like me.
Its only when we are divided up me and him,
Just like I can’t seem to stop worrying.

Am I not good enough for him?

I am uncertain of the consequences of this,
nightmare that seems to chase me all the time.
It’s like a disease that is incurable,
I’ve been like this my entire life and I just can’t seem to help it!

It’s simply not funny at all to be uncertain,
especially not if it’s the love of your life,
You are uncertain of...

I’m scared of being left alone again...

What if someone else was more attractive then you are?
What if he finds someone smarter than me?
Would he then try it out to be with two at the same time?
Damn! I’m going to puke just of the thought.

I just can’t stand the thought of losing him to someone else.
It’s confusing not to have self-confidence enough,
It makes you scared of losing the love of your life,
When you have finally found him.