A Life Full of Scrap

Okay to begin with it's not Transformers... Argh~ I haven't get to watch... pisses me off... I must watch it this Friday with smalls of coz'. Okay since we're talking about movies here... (excuse me la off topic a bit hehe) I might as well promote this damn good movie "Drag me to HELL" lolx awesome-ness well at least I thought so... but ending a bit predictable for me la... Went and watch it with my girl friend last weekend(Ah yee aka Qin Zi Poh hehe) It's more like she scares me than the movie lolx. Those of you who haven't watch yet please go grab the tix... it's worth it! TRUST ME buahahaha~

Alright back to the topic... I've found the spark... meaning to be alive... where I'm heading which I think I will put my career first... who I wanna be with (still a bit mystery though) Okay since we're talking about guys just a little updates. He called yesterday night telling me about stuff I think he is damn random lor. Asking me about relationship out of a sudden. First of all, I'm god damn sleepy it was like 1am or 2am? Yeah he was on his way back to KL from Ipoh. As far as I know, I think he is in love with someone from his hometown... (Yeah you heard the broken glass sound and being swept away) Well he told me before he like this girl but wasn't sure if long distance is going to work because the girl can't come KL reason is she cannot leave her mum alone in Ipoh bla bla bla (some stories la). Yesterday he said, he is lost =.=". I'm like (yeah like you're the only one... I'm lost in my dreams man) Wake me up just to tell me he is confuse and that he just finish his drinking session driving back to KL. We talked a lot on relationships stuff, he asked if I was in his shoe what would I do if I just broken up recently which I just did and suddenly I found this guy that I like (which I did as well) will I risk to get hurt again? I'm like wtf... If like then just go with the flow la... Then he goes on telling me his ex-gf stories...how he is not ready to commit to anyone that he couldn't imagine himself walking down the aisle with anyone...why is he thinking so bloody far? (I'm like omfg cut the crap I'm so sleepy I just fell asleep not long and that bloody phone rang even though I wish to hear his voice but my eyes can barely open) In the end, he said his hp low bat I'm like okay "you better keep it for emergency purposes since you're driving for such a long distance" click we hang up.

Truth is I just couldn't bear listening to him talking about other girls -.- OKAY I know I'm just having a high school crush here... I don't know if he knows... erm... It's just so complicated because he is as complicated as me. He told me he like intense / dramatic relationship which is a good and bad thing. Good is I'm like that too. Bad thing is it will explode if both of us are like that. He is as control freak as I am. He hide his inner-feelings to himself and so afraid of getting hurt again. Anyway, just don't know what he wants... at times he show he is interested and at times he is not... and he only calls me when he is driving =.=" which I find it very weird... (I don't mean that he is a freak) just I feel both of us got so much secrets that we don't face each other with our true feelings... it's just bugging me should I keep thinking about if there's a hope for us... if this if that... I'm scare I'm digging my own grave like I did for the past 7years. What stunt is he trying to pull here? One day asked me out next day tell me he is in love with others? One day he wanna make a promise to bring me out for Transformers and ended with my big mouth said well if you really mean it then only say... (he stand up to me too many times :P) then randomly I suggested he go back Ipoh he could bring his parents go watch... Well he did... he actually brought his parents go watch =.=" Ahhh... complicated? I'm confuse by his action, this is the first time I actually encounter someone that I can't read like a book! Damn it! He is like a puzzle, so frustrating yet so interesting!!! It is just so exciting... he made my heart skip all the time (okay exaggeration) I mean most of the time.

Now back to the topic "I've found the spark" I did... I wanna be SAE by end of the year I do really hope I get promoted by then... by 2 more years I wanna be AM... I am working doubly hard...but somehow I feel I'm not there yet, I still feel the goal is too far and I've not done enough to reach there in time. Honestly, I'm starting to enjoy what I do. No life so what? At least it doesn't get me bored. The stress level is high but it's like an anti-boredom thingy. I feel very happy working with my colls. Finally, I feel I've achieved something in life and I've survived the battle :D but the battle doesn't just end here... I'm still fighting yeah like my online game warrior hahaha...

Talking about games. Lately I've found my long lost love back... I'm playing Celestial Destroyer some local online base game. It's pretty interesting to my surprise I'm actually addicted to it already hehe... Googling it at work searching for more tips on how to lvl and shit like this haha... at least I get to unwind and it's fun.

I guess I type too much crap here. Till we meet again. Chaoz~