A Life Full of Scrap

Well the title says it all...

That's what we've decided... you must be wondering decide on what right?
He messaged me yesterday asking "Do you think we should be together?"

What kind of question is that? I know for a fact that both of us are not ready for another relationship but the chemistry between both of us is definitely there...

Later he called up after his work... surprising he is working OT normally Mon and Tues is his off day... well usual he always say he is broke haha...

Anyway, bottom line is we've come to a conclusion that we will stay where we are... enjoying each other's company until we're both comfortable enough to move on to the next step and be steady...

Well, I'm pretty happy now. I think I've finally done it. Put the past behind and start moving forward. He had save me from all the nightmares.

Tried talking to my ex so we could be friends. However, it seems to me that his heart has become as cold as a stone. At least I've tried. I may be a very mean person but I'm the type of person who cherish every single bit of memories that I've gone through with anyone whether it's good or bad. To me everything happened for a reason. No matter how angry I am at him, he will always have a place in my heart. I still think he had played a huge role in my past and I'm grateful for everything he had done whether it's good or bad... he has turned me to a stronger and better person.

Overall, I'm just going to be like the river... calm and steady~! I'm just lucky I didn't give up on love even after going through a huge disappointment. I hope for the best for him (as in my ex in this context) At times, I still wonder how is he doing... I feel like calling him then to ask how is he doing... how is his diabetes... izzit any better? I still have that urge to wannna pick up that phone and just dial his number... How can I ever forget that number it's just one digit different from mine. However, after spoken to him the other day I think things has been great for him. I am happy for him.

Guess that's all for now.