A Life Full of Scrap

I misses him dearly... how could he be so heartless? How to be as heartless as him? The pain is too much to handle. The more I hated him the more I misses him.

I hope this misery will be over soon... Acting strong is never a problem for me. Smiling in front of everyone it's also not a problem for me. Moving on is the hardest part.

It seems to me he is pretty happy and move on like nobody's business. I wonder he had found another girl or back to his ex-es whom he meet oneday back @ Datacom of coz' it's without my knowledge until I found her name card.

I wonder have he ever really truely love me before. When he first dated me, he already start to lie. I am wondering if all these years, the relationship is base on nothing but just lies.

If I am given a wish, I would wish I never meet him in my life. This break up has really hits me too hard...I am just so depressed. Gosh~ I wish I could take an eraser and just erase him from my memory.

I still couldn't believe the guy whom used to love me suddenly become a cold hearted person. It's just so scarry...and I am just so pathetic to be missing a jerk like him.

*Tears of sadness & disappointment rollin' non stop*

I wish I can stop it from pouring... it's like waterfall on my face... I hate it so much. Makes my eyes pain like hell.