A Life Full of Scrap

Haha... I couldn't help but google the meaning of my nightmare today. The stupid dream is pretty disturbing. Whole day I've been thinking about it already. So I decided to find out what does it mean... Here's what I found:

To dream that you commit suicide, denotes that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around.

To see someone commit suicide in you dream, highlights your concerns for that person. Also consider what characteristics and qualities in that person you may be trying to "kill" and annihilate in your own self. Perhaps you hope that you are not like that person in some way and are making attempts to get rid of those traits within your own self.

However, I still couldn't remember what is that something she pointed to me. She as in the me I saw in the dream. Probably pointing for a new direction in life? I definitely hope so. I think it's part of me trying to get rid of the pain and misery I am feeling. Even though these few days, things has been getting better. I am pretty much getting used to the single life but I somehow somewhere deep down I can still feel it. It still sting and hurt. Memories about him still make me cry but good thing is I've accept it as a fact already :)

Damn I really wanna know what did she pointed to me... Getting old probably why I can't remember it at all... anyway that's it for today!