A Life Full of Scrap

Argh~ To start off I feel like shit! My life is full of crapz! Nothing but rubbish! I feel angry everyday. I feel miserable everyday. I feel sad everyday. ONE WORD EMO! I'm about to break down soon. My work is getting more and more hectic each farking day. From 2 segment to 3. From a boss to 2 bosses... but it feels like no boss everything also on my shoulder I feel the pressure is getting more and more. Earning such a pathetic pay after working for a year still no pay raise argh~ taking shit from clients! As if they got a life and I have none!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Got a tix to Knight Castle but Wei Ling last min said cancelled. I thought I could have the long time fun which I have been missing for ages! I need to release my god damn stress... god damn depression drives me up to the wall! Not to mention on my health issue! This is bad for my recovery. I just wish to have a peace of mind. Sleep in peace for at least a day... and that also hard to achieve! Worrying about money, about my health, about those pathetic deadlines and worst of all going through all this shit alone! I cry silently in my heart wishing someone could understand.

Fought with KW, well he pissed me off with his ignorant comments. I don't blame him for giving his thoughts out just like that but at times I really wish he could be more sensitive and think of the things he said or going to say will actually hurt people's feeling. I used to be patience because I know that's what or who he is. However, with the shit I am going through now sorry la just don't step on my tail anymore. I can barely breath and stay alive.

Each bloody night get nightmares feels like I haven't sleep for ages. Each bloody day work like a dog I haven't have any fun for ages. Each bloody day I wish things will work out themselves but no they just turn worst and worst every bloody day! I need a vacation, I need to run away from all my misery. I want freedom too! I want to be free from my problems, from my misery, from my work, from my responsibility. I WANT TO BE FREE JUST LIKE YOU!

Nobody cut me any slack... nobody understand me... nobody care ~>.<~ I don't want to be strong anymore... I just want to love and be loved. At least someone out there that cares enough to ask if I am okay. Nobody... not a single soul! I hate my life! I just wish to disappear and wish if things were that easy.