A Life Full of Scrap

People said loneliness is about the scariest thing there is. However, Hani-chan thought of it as an element which adds beauty to life. Boyfriend went back to Malacca for Sunday wedding lunch therefore she has all the time in the world by herself. She decided to stay back and enjoy this quiet evening alone. It's a perfect time for her to do some serious thinking. After all, she believes that a man's life is a reflection of his own thoughts.


What are her thoughts?

• Her Career : Stay or Leave?
• Her Family : Another World War coming? Make love please!
• Her Relationship : Will it last or just another add on to the list?
• Her Financial : Money is never enough! How to get more money?
• Her Dream : Where will she be in 5 years time?

All those questions popping in her mind are mixture of dark and light feelings which manifested the "confused thought syndrome". It feels like a war between her conscious and subconscious mind. She wanted to stay positive but at the same time the other side of her is telling her not to have any high hopes just in case it doesn't turn out to be what she wishes for. It's like falling from a sky with a broken parachute resulting death! No doubts she is afraid of getting hurt and disappointed again after going through so many hurdles over the years. However, there's a dim spark of fire which still resides within her that still wants to believe the existent of happy ending in today’s world. She wants to believe that just as long as she put her heart and soul into whatever she hope for things will turn out just fine. 

Isn't that a little naive? Probably... Hani-chan has always love happy ending story lines. Her all time favourites will always be epic Disney cartoons such as the Cinderella. When she so young she always believes that everything will always end in happy endings, good guys will always beat up the bad ass guys and gain victory in the end. As time past by she grew older she realise things doesn't always turn out the way she want them to be. At times she started to feel that nothing ever really last... friendship it can be broken, relationship it can be broken too, you can be rich today but you can be poor the next day, you will die someday somehow, the world will also come to an end too someday somehow when the mother earth finally give up on us... So does having hopes still bring any benefits to people? Or having hopes merely just giving us more heartache in return?


Guess that's something for everyone to ponder... Chaoz for now!