A Life Full of Scrap

Have you experienced true passion only to watch it disappear? Have you ever ask what if some relationships are meant to be deep and intense, but temporary. Sort of like the gift of a dozen roses or a bottle of exceptional scotch or whiskey? We don't expect the roses to last forever, but we're more than willing to revel in the fragrance or flavor or beauty of that kind of gift for as long as it lasts. The same goes for pets, we know at the outset that no matter how much we love them, we don't get to have them around for all our lives.  However, we humans are rather 'funny' creatures. Why aren't we willing to do this in our love and sexual relationships? Certainly one big reason is that we rarely know going in that this magical time has an expiration date. It's like we refuses to see the darker side of the world and our brain will automatically eliminate the word "it's OVER" or there's no such word exist in our dictionary when we're madly in love. Some things just doesn't last forever as it will come and go just like the four seasons.

What would you do if you were offered a unique, once in a lifetime gift that you could keep for only a short time; say roses whose beauty and fragrance were unique in the world or the opportunity to run a marathon and win big that marks the end of your running career rather than the beginning or a magical relationship. What would you say? Wow, yes! Or no thanks, I would be too unhappy and sobbing away when it's over so I'll just pass. But then again there's no pat answer that suits everyone.

Hani-chan couldn't figure out what type of person she is... wonder if it's a yes or it's a no. Her first answer might be a big NO. It's obvious that she knows when it's over it's going to feel like shyt! However, through her personal records, fact seems to be the other way round. She seems to enjoy the magical moments even though the time frame seems rather short. It's just like a 'touch and go' thing. She had 2 ex-es currently have a bf but before that she has got her arse involved in few other guys too... Well it's not an official thing therefore she classified them as the 'part-time affairs' XD Yeah drama queen she is... she's played roles in almost all characters you can think of in a love drama series... "the betrayals", "the 3rd party", "the loyal one"... (oh 3rd party fyi: I don't even know until it was over) someone once asked her "if she ever regret her past?"

Guess she's not the type that will regret anything she has done. Every decision made is what made her who she is today. There's this great quote that goes around the Internet: "When I die, I want to go skidding up to the pearly gates, party hat askew, champagne in one hand, chocolate dipped strawberries in the other, shouting 'Woooo-HOOOO, what a ride!" So, if it looks really delicious or sinfully enticing; even if she knew ahead of time she wouldn't get to enjoy it for the rest of her life. She'd probably go for it.

Wondering why she's typing all these nonsense? Bah just some reflection from the past strike her to do so. Okay time to go... too much crapz XD ChaoZzz~!