A Life Full of Scrap

It's been week since i last spoken to him i guess...
I guess my message to him was pretty clear and he is back to his avoiding mode again. Well, i feel so so much better nowadays... buried myself into my work... I guess avoiding isn't being immature I guess that's the best way for the both of us to heal. I was pretty harsh the oth nite... feel bit sry saying those words to him. But then oh well... what's been said has been said...nth much I can do.

Talking about work haihz... so much to do yet so little time to spare. Was working till 4am YEA AM... alone in the office. Damn freaky man...was bz doing some research for my shitty MMS brief. Well I'm glad i did it after all.

Oh back to my moving on story, i guess I've begin to let go of the idea "how i wish our timing were rite thingy" I've started to realize he wasn't really into me...n we were just there just bcoz the both of us were having same r/ship problems...me n my guy n vice-verse.

I do miss chattin' and talking to him (those times where we use to talk bout everything and anything when nth eva started between us) Gosh... I miss it so much.
But i guess i feel a lot better blogging (dun really care if ppl read or ppl din read)...nvr know blogging helps expressing my feelings and sadness...suddenly i feel so so so...much better.

And i am still with my guy. Our WW3 ended, (i guess u can called it the usual) even though i know he is trying his vy best not to pissed me off... or trying his vy best to treat me better...some how it just doesn't feel the same anymore. It's not like i don't love him but it's just different. Surprisingly I find myself not as "caring" as i used to be, the "I dun really care" attitude actually means I dun really love him that much already. I would say he feels the same way too. But we are still like glue sticking to each oth and just won't let go.

Erm... i guess moral of the story here is "Avoiding is good way to forget and would probably be the easiest way to heal" -EnD42DaY-