A Life Full of Scrap

No matter how or what I do... I realize I couldn't run far from this pathetic feelings of mine... it's depressing! I tried so many ways to make myself happy and not to think about anything... yet the more I run away the more it's coming after me. Lately, I got nothing much to do in the office nor at home... I find my life's getting meaningless. Argh~ I really need to do something productive... but I have no idea what to do =.=||| Anyone any suggestion?

Stupid brain of mine loves to make me depressed whenever I'm too friggin' bored or too darn free! It will start to wonder on so many things and it will then put me in a position where I feel like a loser =.= Oh my self-esteem is so low and I have no will to do shit!

I still miss him somehow... we still talk to each other but it's like a hi and bye conversation. I would love to talk to him more but somehow it's just awkward. I don't know why but I just couldn't get him off my mind. I'm trying so god damn hard to not think about him... but each time I just couldn't help it. I know it's time to move on and let go... I know he will be just one of my friends and nothing more... Haihz... I just hate going through this again and again >.<

How good if man are emotionless hehe =P okok it's a stupid statement but it's really painful experience going through shit like this twice in a row... Haihz I'm sooooo BORED it's unbelievable... I should start to sing the song... "Lonely~ I'm so lonely" XD okay don't mind me... I'm a bit coo-koo! That's what happened when DiGi got no jobs for me haha... =P Okay I know I grumble a lot. You must be thinking "when got job complained got job when no work complained no work... this women is hard to please!" haha exactly... I'm complicated and hard to please. Maybe that's the reason why I should be alone for the rest of my life hahaha...

Haihz stuck in the office nothing to do since traffic jammed gilar maaa... whole day play facebook only. Sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Ok la... nothing "happening" in my boring little life. I wish I wake up and the nightmare will be gone tomorrow. Or I wish I wake up tomorrow found out that I have a pair of wings so I could just fly... fly like the bluebird over the rainbow way up high~~~ la~la~la~ haha! When I'm down somewhere over the rainbow always seems to cheer me up =D such a beautiful classic song... I just love it. Okay done crapz-ing! Chaoz!