A Life Full of Scrap

After MIA for such a long... long... long... time, I'm finally BACK!!! Wow it's been more than half a year now, I have left this space empty. So this is my very first post for 2013! I have so much to say that I don't know where to begin with. I've been busy with work and preparation for my big day. I guess I'll just talk about the big day. It's gonna be held on our 4th Anniversary which is like two months away. 

Recently, I felt like I'm having the nervous bride syndrome. Having these anxiety, jumpy and confused feeling in you isn't funny at all. As the day draws near, I find that I couldn't really sleep well at night, worrying about the wedding plans, thinking about the shift of my identity and the responsibility (huge one not even sure I'm gonna be a good wife or am I actually ready for this?) 

I often heard about how people getting this 'cold-feet' feeling just before their big day. I never thought I would experience it myself. I've always thought I've found a good man in my life who loves me and that's all that matters. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way, maybe we can blame it on the frenzy of wedding plannings... or the lack of food (yeah I just gotta diet for the sake of that two days event). It might be because I'm a perfectionist as well and if the wedding doesn't go as planned I'll probably make a super duper huge fuss on it. Maybe I watched too much Disney movies as a kid... I've always dream of having a different kind of wedding when I was kid (blame it on Cinderella =P) I love having people dancing in the middle of the ballroom and people making a toast for you (with real champagne), the bride and groom happily dancing away doesn't need to entertain anyone. I know I know it's pretty much western style. I don't fancy the normal Chinese wedding ceremony thingy. I often find it meaningless, costly and it's such a hassle to even begin with. If you ask me and if I'm given a choice, I probably take my money go Paris, Rome, round the world or wherever and come back just announce "Hey, guess what? I'm married!"  

It's like two months away, we have yet to finalize our guest list and it means we have yet to finalize the number of tables and it also means we have yet to finalize the dishes too. I'm more worried for the Malacca side because Penang side my parents volunteered to do everything for me (I am so so grateful to them) and I have no worries (my mum is a perfectionist too =P and I trust her because her taste is just gonna be as great as mine). So the invitation cards is still laying on the table. His mum said "Chinese ghost month ar... pantang don't give the card now". I am like "Then? Bila mau bagi?". Seriously wth... what does the ghost month has gotta do with me... whatever! 

There's still so many things I haven't do, pick my gown, jimui dress and heng tai clothes, the props, the thank you gift, the song list (thank God I just finalize my band for Malacca side) and so many more. It's driving me into Bridezilla mode it's just insane! I just wish I don't have to do all these stuff...

Anyway, guess you guys have nuff' of my grumbles. I'll continue some other day. Grumbling can be exhausting too. Here's some sneak preview of our Pre-weds. Enjoy!