Yup MIA for ages...(ok exaggeration few days didn't blog but it feels like ages) Reasons as below:
- Lazy
- Lazy
- Lazy okay maybe SICK...
- Sick like a dog for few days... MC 2 days... Hani-chan's body getting weaker and weaker...
- Past weekend erm... off to Malacca to visit dear's family... finally seen the Dad... okay practically the whole family...
- Been busy with comp review argh~ just hate it!
- Not in the mood to blog...
- Actually not in the mood to do shyt...
- Wonder what's wrong...
- Feeling emo non-stop!
Okay... Hani-chan is feeling pretty anti-social these few days... feel like keeping to herself... so many things in her mind... best if the whole wide world just disappear for a day... best if she can just curl up hide in her blanket and close her eyes and have nothing to think about... no worries... nothing... tired of trying.. trying to be someone she's not. Being someone who she really is... she's often misunderstand by people around her. Instead of making herself happy she tries to make others happy since she couldn't make herself smile why not see the people she love be happy then... but it's not an easy job. When driving alone tears just kept rolling for reasons she don't understand. For the past few days, images of the past kept haunting her day and night. One thing she learned that she has changed maybe a little too late but better than nothing; she's not the green eye monster who she used to be maybe a little, she's not the control freak she used to be or maybe still a little but not major, she's not clingy anymore... the fact that she's become soft is just something so new to her... it's like she's in someone elses' shoe... it's just not her. One thing she had in her mind was her first ex... for some fark reason she's wondering how was he doing? And should she just throw that blardy watch away... hmm... it's Longines or whatever the name is.. pretty expensive... maybe she should just sell it =P and get some money out of it ***EVIL*** Why she had him in her mind? Simple. Not because she's not over him... it's because of him she has learned how to appreciate her current bf. Part of the reason why it ended erm...Hani-chan was a bad gf (this explained why she has turn over a new leaf now) thus resulting her ex betraying her (her own assumption =P) Not blaming herself but just acknowledging her own weakness... which is a good thing and because of that ta-daaaa reborn a new Hani-chan Melz
Okay nuff' said... too much crapz Hahahaaz
***I had no God damn idea what I am typing Blerkz don't bother reading it kekeke***
